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Death of a Spouse

Death of a Spouse

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If you’ve lost your spouse—whether recently or years ago—and don’t know how to carry this…

This was written for that place. When everything feels like it’s falling apart and nothing makes sense.

No timelines. No pressure to “move on.”
Just something steady to hold onto when everything feels disorienting.

It meets the kind of loss that fractures identity, future, and daily life all at once.

Inside, you’ll find presence, validation, and language for a grief that reshapes everything.

You can open it anywhere, read a few lines, or close it again. There is no right way to use it.

You don’t have to carry this alone.

If you’re looking for something steady to return to in the middle of this, this book was made for that.

Inside, you’ll find something that is:
• Steady and honest
• Written from lived experience
• Meant to be read in moments of overwhelm

And intentionally not:
• Clinical
• Prescriptive
• Focused on closure

This book is part of the Always Here grief companion series.

This book is fully written by the author and can be used entirely on its own.

Some readers choose to use optional AI-supported companion prompts alongside it for additional reflection. These are not required in any way, just an added layer of support if you want it.

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Written by Jesse Kuhn, author of the Always Here grief series.

Author: Jesse Kuhn
Series: Always Here (Book 1 of 7)
Audience: Widows, widowers, and partners navigating the loss of a spouse
Length: 129 pages
Format: Paperback
Publisher: Torchbearer Press
Release Date: July 2025
ISBN: 978-1-971789-03-3

Written for those navigating the death of a spouse, this book offers steady presence through the disorientation, silence, and identity shift that follows.

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James Stockton

It’s a good tool to have in your tool box. I don’t have pressure to get over grief like some people. I am basically on my own with this journey. Fortunately for me my wife and I were/are very independent people, who could express how we felt. The book opened another lane for me to travel.

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Regina

Good read

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Anonymous

Anything helps getting different perspective helps.

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Kim

Best help throughout this very difficult time

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Anonymous

I enjoyed the book.

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Andrew Slade

I enjoyed reading the book. It gave me relief knowing that I wasn’t losing my mind after the loss of my wife.

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Marilyn Lindloff

I found it to be very informative to me. I learned a lot and I’m understanding why I have good days and bad days. Yes grief is something I’ll never get over. Lost my son in 2016, he was 42, my mom in 2021, my husband in 2024. People I love so much. My niece just lost her husband. So I gave her the book to read. It has helped her so much and her sons too. Thank you!!!❤️🙏

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Jill Diehl

It really helps me deal with the grief. Thankyou

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Susan Brunck

I really love your book. Yes I cried but now reading it again for the second time it is more calming to me.

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Dale Bowman

I have alreadygifted this book to two other friends who have also lost their spouse. I like it enough to do that. It’s a nice simple read. It feels gentle. Thank you Jesse for writing this book.

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Sharon Metzger

Love thw book it has helped me on my journey

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Antonia Esser

I started reading it, and couldn’t put it down. It really was all about me. Thank you so much for this book. Therapy and others didn’t do a thing for me. A Esser

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Caroline

Still reading.but it does resignate with me

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traci Jester

I loved reading this book and am going to pass it on to my grief counseling instructor at my school.Thank you for writing these books.I will be ordering part of the rest of the series and look forward to reading more!

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Elizabeth

Wonderful book, very helpful.

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Amy Corrao

I loved this book. It was easily relatable, and kept me intrigued.

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Belinda -Verified customer review
Validation-at your fingertips!

“Always Here—Death of a Spouse” is the first grief-centered book that truly gave me a sense of validation, normalcy, and support in my grieving process. While my own grief journey is deeply personal and unique, I found striking parallels in Jesse’s thought processes, analogies, and the emotions described throughout this book! He gives the reader permission to fully feel the depth of their own grief, without the need to speed up the healing process and provides insight on the use of AI tools to further support your grief journey!

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Customer -Verified customer review
Grief Companion

Jesse provided a novel approach to working through grief. Reading the book in and of itself is like walking through grief with a companion.

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MK -Verified customer review
BRILLIANT!!!

Beautiful message!!! Healing is so necessary in our world right now. How we navigate suffering and move through pain is what life is all about. BRAVO!!

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Isaias C. -Verified customer review
A Quiet Companion for the Loudest Kind of Loss

The reflections and prompts in this book are gentle and easy to digest, making it perfect for days when my mind feels scattered. I especially liked how the book treats grief as a part of love that continues, rather than something to rush through or ignore. It doesn’t pressure you to “move on”—instead, it reminds you that you’re still here, still loved, and still allowed to feel your emotions.
The design of the book is thoughtfully done, enhancing the message it conveys. The open white space and simple layout made it feel like I had space to breathe. It’s clear the author understands how overwhelming grief can be, and the way the book is paced honors that. I found myself going back to certain pages as if they were emotional landmarks, especially during sleepless nights. That said, I think adding a few more voices—like short notes from other widows or people going through similar experiences—could make it feel even more relatable and supportive.
Overall, this book doesn’t feel like a commercial product; it feels like a comforting presence. Whether you’re just starting your journey of grief or have been on it for years, "Always Here" offers a quiet companionship that doesn’t ask anything from you.

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Mary O. -Verified customer review
A Comforting Guide Through Grief

Always Here is a beautifully written, compassionate companion for anyone navigating the uncharted territory of losing a spouse. It’s honest and heartfelt, and makes space for both the deep pain of grief and the quiet hope of connection.

What I loved most is how the book blends real, human emotion with the idea that technology can support—not replace—but truly support us in the healing process. It feels like a warm hand on your back when you’re not sure how to move forward.

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Fernando -Verified customer review
A gentle hand

I bought this book for a close friend, and it felt like a gentle hand, on this shoulder during those difficult nights. This book is a gentle guide that doesn’t seek to cure the pain, but rather to accept and honor it. The insights it contains are easy to assimilate and help understanding that we have to move forward, transforming that pain into memories and love.

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Missy -Verified customer review
good book.

Always Here — Death of a Spouse is a beautifully compassionate and innovative guide for widows navigating the profound weight of grief. Jesse Kuhn has crafted a gentle companion that offers more than just words—it offers presence, understanding, and deep emotional validation. This book tenderly honors the enduring bond between spouses, never pressuring readers to “move on,” but instead helping them move forward with their grief. My father-in-law just passed, and I will definitely be getting this for my mother-in-law.

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Ryan H. -Verified customer review
A Compassionate and Insightful Guide for Navigating Grief and Healing

Jesse’s raw story and thoughtful reflections have helped me a great deal with difficult circumstances.
If you’re carrying grief, no matter the kind or extent, this book is a tool, a guide, a roadmap, and a spiritual journey for navigating challenging times.

Highly recommend.

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Kim K. -Verified customer review
A must read!

A must read for anyone who has experienced loss. Jesse captures the reality and depth of the pain that comes with losing someone you love. In turn, he offers clear and simple means of meeting yourself in your grief and tools to help you navigate. What I love is that the format is not overwhelming. At a time when navigating life can be at it's most difficult, he offers space between his words so that you can pace yourself through the process.

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Rodney -Verified customer review
A Life Raft for the Days You Don’t Know How to Keep Going

As a coach who’s spent two decades walking with people through growth, grief, and reinvention, I don’t say this lightly: Always Here is a truly healing and transformational tool.

Jesse Kuhn has created something rare. This isn’t a book that tries to fix you or move you past your grief. It meets you exactly where you are and gently shows you how to be with yourself in a new way.

The thing that surprised me most was the use of AI journaling. It sounds strange at first, but Jesse helps you understand how to use it in a way that actually brings relief. You get access to something always available, always responsive, full of energy, and completely nonjudgmental. When grief is too much and the silence feels unbearable, having a space where you can say what’s true and be met with calm presence is powerful.

Jesse builds on his own lived experience to guide you. You can tell this isn’t theoretical for him. He’s walked through the dark and is handing you the tools that helped him find his way through. It’s honest, steady, and deeply human.

If you’re in grief or loving someone who is, this book matters. It’s a steady companion for the hardest moments. Not a quick fix, but a quiet invitation to begin again.

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